Happiness is hard to sustain

I need some sunshine after the Rain... som encouragement

jy: i was still saying tat i wan to sustain happiness.. but i didn''t manage to do so.. i am back into the stress and depressed mode again.. feel v useless.. really tired and useless.. am i making the right choice.. do i really need to make myself in this state?? haiz..

in the state where i got no money to buy a little thing that i like.. in the state when all my money had to go for my study and paying this and tat.. having only the not enough money to survive for every month... stress stress stress.. i am not happy.. i am v stress.. have to do alot of thing but cant do anything tat i enjoyed? i am really broke... and when i mean broke.. is really broke.. i really need a break to go oversea but i cant afford.. SAVE?? hw to save wheni dun even have enough to eat every month... argh................... i really need a break... assignment, assignment.. exam coming.. not enough leave for me to take for exam too.. how.. wat if i didn't do well...

i feel useless.. thinking if i am really cut up for taking part time course and working at the same time...haiz....am i ready.. is there really a need??

Guess i really have to jiayou le ba.. and think if i should really go on.. haiz.................

hope i can be like wat lixin say.. there will be sunshine after the rain.. it is ok to be sad.. but not too long as life gone on.. it is our choice to make decision for wat we wan and how we feel.......

HOPE EVERYTHING will goes smoothly ba..

always tell yrself..tml is a brand new day..^@^