jy:i should be a better person.. havnt really been a very good person.. had been really lazy... always scolding ppl.. cursing ppl... haiz.. i dunno wat is going on wif me.. had been moody and bad temper... nag and nag and nag.. WAT wrong wif me lor.. haiz... i lost mood in everything again.. easily feel sianz.. haiz.. i also dunno wat are the real reason.. just feel sianz lor... hmmm maybe cold be busy working.. seem like i have alot of thing to do.. then next week school starting le..will get even more busy le ba.. worse is the class held at ngee ann block 50 lor.. damn sianz lor.. is super far and ulu lor.. dun like to walk there.. always v quiet and like no ppl de leh.. haha.. so far lor..haiz.. which means going home need more time le..argh... i jus dunno wat happened la..
had been scolding my intern in the way.. just dunno why they cant do simple thing properly.. if i everytime have to track wat they are doing then i might as well do it myself lor..haiz.. is really simple thing lor.. just dun understand.. when i give them work i trust they will do the things and therefore i dun really go check on them.. so i guess i made a mistake in this way.. for trusting them too much? argh...
had been cursing.. haha.. saying tat the ppl should just go die.. i also dunno why i start to say this to ppl.. i remember the first time i say is becos of the ren ci hospital.. the mingyi fan shi.. can you imagine he cheated money from the hospital.. is like damn idiot and fucker.. i dunno why ppl do this type of thing.. imagine he doing all the stunt and he is actually wanting to cheat more money.. this is a second time tat charity organisation cheating the money.. then how do you expect ppl to donate again.. is like if there are really ppl tat need help then no one will ever believe again lor..this is really v hateful lor.. tat why i feel tat they can be forgive lor.. is really been cheated lor.. say the mingyi background v good la... give up high position and come to help.. this is all crap lor.. they should be punish.. really bad lor.. the more i think of it.. the more i am angry lor.. all crap and rubbish...
ok i know i am also not v good person... but the point is at least i dun cheat ppl money lor.. the money is meant for ppl who really need help then see wat they do.. are we really giving and helping too much then make ppl greed of the money.. everything also increase... but we still wan to do a little lor.. end up the money is cheated.. so hateful lor.. argh..
i cant tahan lor.. i need more money.. i need business idea.. i need to find more thing for myself to do.. i am like living each day finding no meaning in life lor.. i hate it.. i always envious cass for having the passion for baking.. at least there is something that u enjoy and free from work.. argh.. i need more meaning in life...
always tell yrself..tml is a brand new day..^@^
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