i am in serious dilemma... a serious mis-fit of personality that i had..no wonder i am so weird and i am really suffering alot based on it.. and i guess i really cannot just sit on it anymore.. i am struck... in the position of not able to move forward or going back... it is really difficult when things is not going in the rite way.. worse is when.. yr personality had a pull and push factor tat doesn't in line wif one another... is really troublesome and hard to go on.. i'm tired...
something that you once valued.. suddenly seem worthless for you.. cos u know it very well... it will not be forever... it will change... just sooner or later... who will really be there when u really need help? u started to wonder... watever tat u had done in the past... seem stupid.. useless and really worthless... especially when the priority is different... i know it very well.. deep inside me but why do i keep going in the circle and trying to hold on to something tat is not possible... going thru the same shit again? why? this is going to haunt me... this is going to be a big issue to me... for me to be successful.. yet holding me back...i have to make decision.. to make a stop.. so it all goes down to... wat do i really value more.. or rather.. which one i should value more... wat do i really wan?
haiz... why... why must i go thru all this? is it becos i have to learn the hard way? thru the hard way then ppl will grow?
tired.. tired of all this... confidence totally destroyed.. so as self esteem.. ok i know i made it sound so serious but.... it is really hateful and you feel totally lousy abt yrself when you have to go thru this... seriously i really hated it
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live to travel.. travel to live~~
always tell yrself..tml is a brand new day..^@^
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