Friday, June 24, 2011

fail.. failure....

jy: cant help but to think this ways.. i know ppl will say.... u need to be positive.. is not tat i dun wan but is really hard... it has been months.. going half year.. time passes by too fast...

on the surface it seem like i had been enjoying my life... well.. in some sense.. YES i enjoyed... cos seriously who can be like me... no need to worry abt work.. still can go for short trips here and there... but deep in me.. i feel really helpless and useless... i did all tat i need to do... i need to work so that i can fulfill wat i wan in life which is traveling.. i love traveling and i wan to go places that i nv go before... with the current situation.. is really very very hard =(

well.. life goes on.. when u have no choice and u still need to feed yrself.. u need to make decision which you dun like and so wat u really hated to do it... i going to do part time.. back in AK.. YA... AK... but wat to do... tat is the best.. cos first of all.. helping candy.. at the same time i can arrange my timing quite freely becos there is no contract... i no need to commit anything so if any good news come by.. i can just inform them.. the thoughts of seeing PC just kills me.. but like alot of ppl say... i still need to eat yet.. so.... just heck la... go and work and earn a bit lor...

really praying hard for some goods new... Jobs ah jobs.... can please drop from the sky... i really need it badly... please ~~ i promise i will do my best and be good... =(

i'm thankful to have him.. without him.. i think this period will be a even darker times.. but i really hope to depend on myself... *praying hard*

live to travel.. travel to live~
always tell yrself...tml is a brand new day..^@^

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